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Tuesday, September 3, 2013

here's to 730 days of love

Today, I celebrate 2 years of wedded bliss to best man I know. When I think back over the last two years, I'm amazed at how fast they have flown by and all that we have seen and experienced.  I think back to September 3, 2011 and see a 20 year old girl who thought she had love all figured out-- little did she know how much she had left to learn.  I knew I was jumping into the ride of my life, but I didn't know that ride would be so exciting and frustrating, joyous and painful, lively and exhausting.  Marriage is hard work and don't let anyone try to tell you otherwise.  This love that you've never felt for another person before takes lots of nurturing and protecting, and sometimes it just wears you out.

But with all of that said, these have been the best 2 years of my life.  I truly didn't know my heart could love this much.  I didn't know I was capable of caring for someone so deeply.  I had no idea I could literally fall more in love with the same man day after day after day.  Jeremy Davis rocks my world.

As we've been approaching this anniversary, I sort of had this idea that this year wasn't really that special. You know its just 2 years right? Like your first anniversary is so special, and then 5 years, 10 years, and so on.  But 2? No big deal... just another year.  However, as I woke up this morning (late as usual) I was reminded during the rush of both of us tripping over each other trying to get out the door on time, that 2 years is a big deal. 730 days. Why do we only choose to celebrate "big" or "important" milestones? You always hear about people's firsts and lasts, but how often do you hear about the in-between?

So this year I'm committing to living and loving each and every new day that God gives me and Jeremy to its absolute fullest. I want to appreciate and treasure the every day sameness.  I want to cherish all the "unimportant" moments that I so easily forget.  I want to pause a little longer to listen to Jeremy when he shares his dreams with me. I want to live in the moment even if that means getting behind on my ever-so-important to do list. I want to laugh a little harder when Jeremy teases me, even when I really "need" him to hurry. I want to intentionally smile when I'm going around picking up all of the things he's left out throughout the day. I want to "stop and smell the roses" a little more this year than I did the last.  I heard a quote the other day that said life only passes us by because we let it.  I think thats true.  We get so wrapped up into our routines and schedules and chores and obligations that life's little moments just fly right on past us.

So Jeremy, this year I vow to love you more intentionally, more passionately, and more thoughtfully than I did last year.  Every day that I wake up with you by my side is going to be a good day, regardless of what it may hold.  Together we are going to make it through the hard days, and we're going to share the laughs of all the wonderful days. Keep holding my hand as we walk this crazy journey and tackle whatever comes our way.

I love you MORE.

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